Ok so lately I have had something weighing heavy on my heart. It's not a decision that has to be made right now, but my obsessive (and unhealthy, I know) personality/brain will no let this issue go until I have some kind of resolution. The question of the hour is whether or not to have another child.
I know what you are thinking already, ummm...isn't your baby only four months old?? I know she is four months old and I want to cherish every moment with her. But on the other hand....she's already four months old! Where has the time gone? I have enjoyed every minute of her since she made her debut and I believe that is because I am at a different place in life (as I have mentioned before). I know the decision shouldn't involve any one but God, Parker and myself but what I want is advice from those who have been there. Whether you have several children or whether you grew up with several siblings.
I never pictured myself as the mother of more than two, but I also planned to marry at 24 and have my first child at 27, be an attorney and stay in Valdosta. So it looks like my plan is out the window haha!
Parker and I both say we are done when asked about it, but deep down we both are unsure. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to be in competition with Michelle Duggar, but something within me feels as if I am not finished. On the other hand, my oldest is already 9 years older than my youngest. The main reason people tell me I need to try for another is to "get that boy". While I would be absolutely ecstatic if we had a boy, I would be just as excited for another girl.
I don't know when to say when, but I do see myself when my children are grown having a room full of grandkids for holidays and birthdays, etc.
I generally only ask a select few for advice, but I'll try my luck with this one...
Give me your thoughts, pros or cons to having more children or let me know if I am supposed to feel that sense of finality and know that I am done!
Until next time....
